The days are starting to blurrrrr and I am starting to slurrrrr. The last two days I have been "vacked" a great deal of the time, I find that being here and the fuller I get the hungrier I become! The more God pours out his love, the more I see, hear and experience him, his love, gooodness or power the more I want and the deeper the realisation grows in me that a life lived without the manifest presence of God is a life of the most appalling poverty. We may not see it that way but when we see what the kingdom is meant to look like, and who we are and thus what we have access to in father's house to live without it is appalling!

Heidi Baker spoke yesterday both in the morning and in the evening. In the morning she spoke about being sealed by the Holy Spirit with the seal of adoption, at the end of her message she gave an invitation for those who felt fire on their hands or their chest to come for prayer to be "sealed". Now I must be honest and confess that I didn't feel particularly warm in either place, however I didn't feel cold either, so I went forward. The place in front of the stage was crowded with people so I didn't get that near to Heidi, but the anointing was tangibly present from meters away from the front. As I drew near to the front and put my hands up I could already feel the power of God going through me like shock waves of power making me jerk, as if I were having some sort of seizure. (My Inner Critic is saying I LOOKED like a jerk! Aww shaddap IC and have a DRINK!) A guy standing near me, I think he was part of the prayer team laid hand on my chest and prayed, THEN I felt the fire! I literally felt heat come on my chest, it felt like I had a hot water bottle being pressed to my chest, and I began to laugh and laugh and laugh. Now I know that I have never been accused of having a soft laugh, no-one has ever said for example that my laughter is like gentle music. Yes, I know, I get it, I laugh loud!!!!However This whole week I feel like have been ROARING with laughter, it has been bursting out of me, and bearing in mind that I am still recovering from a suspected cracked rib as a result of falling off a J-board two weeks ago, it has at times been not only uncomfortable but downright painful! I laughed like that, and even when I opened my eyes to find the poor guy in front of me using his finger to block his ear, which was about a foot away from my mouth, I couldn't stop so great was the joy that seemed to burst out of me!I just kept thinking of what it felt like growing up in my broken home, with my Dad gone and my Mum drunk (aside: no Icey, not on the Holy Spirit, on whiskey whiskey! You really need to get vacked you know that?) and feeling alone, stupid and worthless and contrasting the feeling of God's complete love acceptance and pleasure in me the more I though about it, the more I roared!

The evening was awesome too! I saw my friend Timothy Berry get ordained. Let me try and explain Tim...Tim is a fireball! At 22 he carries incredible fire, passion, anointing and a tremendous leadership gift. He lead our Global Awakening team in Pemba, Mozambique which I would have thought a huge challenge to leaders twice his age as not only were we from all over the world, many of us he had never met and he was surely one of the youngest members of the team. Yet he was fearless and lead with confidence and skill. He is a giant....in the spirit! (Sorry, Tim if you are reading this I couldn't resist! ;) ) Tim was prayed for by most of the Apostolic men and women, including Heidi who just seemed to be pouring love and anointing into him for at least 20 minutes of soaking prayer. Well, Tim was stuck to the floor for the rest of the night, a few hours at least. Great to see him on the recieving end for a change! By the way if you wanted to have him speak at your church, he is power-filled!

The night ended with what must me the most apostolic fire tunnel I have ever seen. As every person left they passed through a fire tunnel with Bill Johnson, Georgian and Winnie Banov, Che Ahn, Randy Clark, Roland Baker, Leif Hetland and many others making up the Tunnel. Needless to say I only just made it out alive!